happy tuesday!!

Hello again!! First off I was very very happy to recieve all the
emails. They were wondeful and all so very sweet. I love you guys! I
have to be honest ready those made me a little teary eyed and
homesick, but that's ok, ill get through it. And im so sorry that i
forgot to wish terence a happy birthday last week!! seriously though,
i felt bad. I thought about it at one time and was like dang it... i
forgot!! but i guess that's what you get for being so so busy all the
time. I have forget a lot of things now just cause so much stuff goes
on. But that's ok, ill remember everything eventually. Ok, so to
answer questions and stuff. um.... lets see if i can remember them
first. Oh ya mom, that sounds great. And also, I am tryin to eat as
healthy as i can here in the cafeteria, and so im tryin not to eat
much sweets, so do you think you could send me a big bag of those hard
peppermint candies, so that way i can just have one of those or
something, and they don't let you chew gum in the mtc so that will
help get rid of the nasty onion breath...hahaha. but other than that i
can't really thinnk of much else. Thanks for those vitamins! ok lets
see, what has been going on. well, today we went this morning with the
russian natives to the temple so that they could recieve their own
endowments. It was really great, and I got to be an escort to one of
the sisters so that was fun for me too. It was a beautiful experience,
and some of these sisters have given up a lot to serve missions. Some
of them haven't beeen members for long and have had to fight and
struggle with parents for them just to let them come. Kinda crazy, and
they are amazing girls. They have so much courage! Teaching here in
the mtc is crazy!!! I never thought it would be so hard! We taught in
the trc last wed and that went pretty well but only because our fake
investigator was really involved and asked a lot of questions. We just
taught our teacher who is acting as our progresssive investigator for
the first time yesterday (he goes by denise). And let me tell you!
that was not so easy! very scary! and it is tough tryin to teach with
the spirit when you don't know what questions to ask and when you
can't find out there concerns. But hopefully as time goes on I will
get better at listening to the spirit during lessons. It is scary, but
i just neeed to learn how to be calm and just not be afraid to open my
mouth. Maybe it will be a little different when i am actually teaching
real people out in russia. So the language!!! ahhh...comeing along a
lot slower than i expected. They want us to already start learning the
first lesson in Russian, and that is tough!! I honestly feel so stupid
sometimes, because learning has never in my life been this difficult
for me. It is rough by i am pushing through. I just keep looking at
the older districts who speak better russian and say that if they can
do it, then so can I!! Seriously though, and i thought when i took
those 2 spanish classes in highschool that i was goin crazy...man,
then i am definitly goin crazy now. haha. don't get me wrong, i LOVE
russian, it is a beautiful language. But it will not come without
extremely hard work and a lot of prayers. Sunday was a really great
day. At RS janice kapp perry came and spoke to us. and during her talk
we sang a medley of a bunch of primary songs. It was really sweet and
i started to miss those cute little primary kids that i got to play
piano for. Their humility and unweavering hope and small children is
really an example to me. sunday night we got to watch the jospeh
smight movie. oh man that movie gets better and bettter each time i
see it! totally loved it! in the movie he said something like "the
Lord calls us in our weakness, but He qualifies us for His work." That
really hit me hard, becuase right now i feel quite weak at what I have
been asked to do, but I know He will not leave me alone, and He will
help me to learn whatever He needs me to learn. In the movie it also
talked about how we cannot be satisfied with our loved ones and
families having the gospel alone, but we must go and teach it to all
of Gods children. I realized how I have been selfish and how i have
thought that as long as my family has the gospel, then i am ok. But
others need to have the gospel, and their families also need to
gospel. We are all Gods children. and those people in russia are not
going to learn the gospel utnil i humble myself, learn russian, and
then go out to teach them. I love this gosple! I lvoe my Heavenly
Father and my Savior! I know this chruch is true. Don't worry about
me...Im hanging in their. It seems like i may be in the mtc for years,
but everyone says it goes by fast! Well, my time is also up! thanks
again for all the emails. You are great and i love hearing from you.
Write back often! sorry if i didn't answer everything. ill try to
write a handwritten letter! Love you all and miss you! you are in my
prayers!!!!!!!! Love, Sister Brown